Mirror Mirror On The Wall

Watching my reflection stare at me
Watching my possible future spit on me
Watching myself hit the rock bottom
Hardest part was still letting you walk away.

Sitting here all by myself today
There Comes tomorrow when I’ll be gone
Leaving myself in a shimmering pain this way
When the world doesn’t have a clue what’s going on.

Loving the addiction all alone
All our lives pretending clones
Nothing is wrong with a bit of shame?
When I know I’m the one who breaks

Whispers now turn into erratic screams
My life fall’s before an autumn leaf
Shadows of the lament past haunting me in my dreams
Tonight is the night when I’m so pleased.

Resting on the table with a little shot-gun
Looking at the barrel I know the moment has come
I need to breathe the final air
and wish this blow shall take the pain away

Maybe...Its just ME

I am not sure if its gonna work

Maybe I need sometime alone

All the little things she said

All the little pills I fucking take

Maybe its just another dream for me

Some kind of a little fantasy

Maybe its Life’s little game

That I am not prepared to play

Did you see those little lights

When it refracted back from the glitter in your eyes

They got dim by the autumn winds

I sure did find the river of hope…through them

I could just get killed by the winter breeze...so kill me

Did you see that broken smile

And how it still keeps on smiling

Did you see that broken man

And how quiet he was dying

Maybe life’s supposed to be this way

I've worn the coat of this deeper grey

Maybe...Its just ME

It’s the way I choose to see

Maybe...Its just ME

It’s the length that I choose to see

The Bleeding

When the silence travels
It slows down the particles of light
And then its time we realize
What life means to us all

Sadness hides the terrible realities
I wish I could dread the paths somewhat diffrently
Knowing that I'll soon be gone
I spoke to the strangers...the angels that prevented holocoust

Unspoken...I twist back in
How did I even get here?
With crooked hands and wicked eyes on me
I know you had the bloodthirst

Felt all alone in a crowded room
Love and hate was behind my eyes
Flashbacks...echoes...the silent cries
I appreciate you punished me...once again!

Gaining on the lust for pain
I surrender to my soul...who's to blame?
Rewards can never be the same
Death I abandon you...wander for the lost masquerade