YOU

It didn’t occur to me…when you took over me and my senses…

Your fragrance on my skin is the reason I glow and become defenseless

The taste of your tongue left me with a flavor…now…I want to starve myself to DEATH!!!

Figuring black the truth of the beauty…grazing through the fields of LOVE…

I see a perfect body…



A soul to share with someone…

Shows me the way not far from grace…

something which is a part of me

You and I were meant to be…



trapped in a suicide veil…

your touch made me believe in the reoccurrence of the blossomed tomorrow

Tonight it shall rain and hail…

Moment of galore ...a look to the dark sky…I saw those dark brown eyes

Savoring my last breath of air…you hold me high

Tripping in that beautiful sorrow…I want you to know this…there is no one like you, or there could EVER be…



Singing my last death nodes…could you be my rhythm…

Certainty lost it meaning with the chorus of the new beginning

Vibration of the harps is in the voice of your heart…

I can feel the music when you serenities me with your song



Love…felt love again…when its best expressed by you

Horrid in the dense forest…I feel I am evolved

Lost in translation…your solitude guides my light

Purify my soul with the AURA you wear…MY LOVE

Quench my thirst and leave me drained…for another lifetime to be restrained…IN THE DARKNESS

STRUGGLE

My struggle for HUNGER

My struggle for DEMISE

My struggle for FREEDOM

My struggle for REPRISE



I wake up…I leave…I get back…I sleep

25 years gone by…searching for a better tomorrow

I did sow a seed…which grew into a tree

But this thorn in my life is from that tree I planted



Caught in a web…I need to save my soul

I need a leash…SOMEONE…come make me PURE...dont leave me uncured

I am trapped…I am trapped…just look under



Here I am in prison…here I am chained to a headcrusher

Don’t you leave me…take me with you

Squeeze LIFE…slit my throat open…

drip it down my throat…AGAIN!!!



My skin…my senses…barely breathe…

I need to breathe to search my lost SOUL…

Touch me so that I could feel myself…AGAIN!!!



what the hell are you trying?

your just not meant to be...

if now u've got to make things right

you have to feed on DESTINY...



My struggle for HUNGER...made me a cannibal

My struggle for DEMISE...taught me to survive

My struggle for FREEDOM...ended in vain

My struggle for REPRISE...made me believe...I AM A MAN

STRUGGLE

My struggle for HUNGER

My struggle for DEMISE

My struggle for FREEDOM

My struggle for REPRISE



I wake up…I leave…I get back…I sleep

25 years gone by…searching for a better tomorrow

I did sow a seed…which grew into a tree

But this thorn in my life is from that tree I planted



Caught in a web…I need to save my soul

I need a leash…SOMEONE…come make me PURE...dont leave me uncured

I am trapped…I am trapped…just look under



Here I am in prison…here I am chained to a headcrusher

Don’t you leave me…take me with you

Squeeze LIFE…slit my throat open…

drip it down my throat…AGAIN!!!



My skin…my senses…barely breathe…

I need to breathe to search my lost SOUL…

Touch me so that I could feel myself…AGAIN!!!



what the hell are you trying?

your just not meant to be...

if now u've got to make things right

you have to feed on DESTINY...



My struggle for HUNGER...made me a cannibal

My struggle for DEMISE...taught me to survive

My struggle for FREEDOM...ended in vain

My struggle for REPRISE...made me believe...I AM A MAN

MOTHER

MOTHER…



Why am I living my life through my own shadow…when you are there

Why don’t you believe you’ve raised me headstrong…

Why my heart doesn’t connect to yours anymore?

All my life I’ve honored you and always swallowed my pride



MOTHER…



Today my spirits are down

and I am looking for someone to hold me all around

you can run my life…I know…but its over now…think again!

you cripple my faith down to the ground when you criticize me



Ohh!! MOTHER…I’ve lived my life all alone

I can carry it forward…release me…

Yesterday cant be today…

I don’t know if I’ll find a path…but I assure u I’d stay alive!



MOTHER…



I’ve never forgotten every word you said to me

You’ve taught me how to survive on my own

I remember when you differentiated the world for me

If I fall on the broken road I know u would SAVE ME!!!



MOTHER…



Every inch of my skin is your blood fed…

How you’ve fed me is something I can never forget

No matter what happens I will always be there...

when my father said to me...I FUCKING HATE YOU

you were the one to hold my broken pieces together

dont let me break again MAA...this time i would be broken forever

without your support...I AM NOTHING

give me some time...LET YOUR SON GROW INTO A MAN…



MOTHER...



Ohh!! Give me strength...if tomorrow I DIE and break a promise

will you please burn me to ASHES...i need your final touch to FADE my soul to BLACK...

DREAM

a protest is ruling my mind...

some things should just be left behind...

i've achieved the feeling...tht i dont feel!! anything anymore...

it is'nt a great feeling for sure...

as long as it solves purpose...

the purpose of life will still stay unresolved...

my shadow is my best friend...

i've learnt to dance with it...



…I am done with it

The orders I should obey

The religion I should follow

Or if I could even dream tomorrow

These dreams are mine

Its not for you to decide

I wrote them frame by frame

Wat ur trying to do…is to steal my name



I need to let a NEW LIFE flourish…

The one where I can hide away from all the skirmish…

Visions of tomorrow…rest in peace

And today I plan…to bore…to BODOM!!!



I want to see myself…running through the fields of happiness

Dip into the pool of LOVE…to set myself ALIVE…to SACRIFICE myself to FREEDOM!!!

Call me Crazy...I aint...I am a MAD LOVER!!!

There Is'nt a yesterday and there is'nt a tomorrow

All i need is the REASON to follow

you are my TODAY

and i want you everyday



I don’t know why the first thing i do with the break of the dawn...

is to just look at you...

the energy i feel is the feeling that the earth feels when sunlight destroys the darkness...

i don’t know i might be wrong...but there is a way where WE belong...

like a lone rider i'll find the path to DESTINY...

and if I find you there i am taking you off to ETERNITY........



It might be a BLUNDER…

but I’ll make sure that I enter your life with a thunder…

Although its going to be the toughest RIDE you would ever take

but i'll leave you with the RAIN that'll never pour down again



as much as i wanna make believe

what you've ignited inside me is the will to get outta hell

to look for the answer…

to rule and conquer…



Call me Crazy...I aint...I am a MAD LOVER



You know what you and me share

people cant even do that in a lifetime…i am glad we met

met across at this station called LIFE

with different destinations...but destined to be together...

KARMA before us...and spirits of evil behind us...

I want to live a lifetime...with you being a part of every second i spend breathing air.....

LOVE

her name was WATER...FIRE was his name...
u can still walk their traces in the forest of delights...
two first lovers ever is what i recollect...
HEAVEN was she & he was HELL...
so different elements caught in EQUILIBRIUM...
I waited so long to share the same with u...
if this is a DREAM… I don’t want this to get over before DAWN,
touch my skin & you'll feel the BLOOD boiling in my HEART, my VEINS...
let me show u how I look INSIDE!

Crumpled and disorientated I wait for the cure
I had a belief in god that it was you for sure
And there you were…with me…for me…
Promising me the break of the morning sunlight

For a woman who came…
Wrapped in the coat of surreal pure soul
For a woman who was sane…
Sane enough to give me HOPE…as I lay dyeing

Looking into those eyes
I lived a thousand lives
WE WERE IN LOVE was the only satisfaction
As I was splitting in tears bringing distraction

Voices of my soul cry out for satan
I cant bear the pain…my soul is playing a game
Departure from the cruel world was decided
Hell was it...Heaven stand no chance...

And it all came to the first day…when I looked into those eyes
All I remembered were the few words I said to you
I wanted them to be OUR beginning
I wanted them to be my doom…

“talking to you today was like the rhythm that i needed...
to start working on a song called “COMMOTION...EMOTION... PERSUASION....”
coz whenever i think of these words...i think of you...
and whenever i think of u...
i want that little disturbance....create one hell of a emotion and take over me....to make me persuade...that i wanna get closer to you each day!!!”

My DEATH is only the new beginning…to the new song…for the NEWBORN!!!

TAME THE BEAST

If ever there could be a sea of sorrow

I would never wanna see that tomorrow

where lost hope is surrendered to EVIL

and slave becomes the master



The lethargy of LIFE is such

souls are battering souls...who gives a FUCK

saints and sinners hold hands

blinding the surreal reality of LIFE



OH!! LIFE, a word that creates despise

i have a blurry vision of LIFE

each day broght me another havoc to face

call of the day is the DEVIL'S...can you delay???



Do we need a meaning to life??

cryptic chaos encircle my mind

cant get it out...I FUCKING need a rewind

I stand in front of the mirror and I find myself in a mess

I dont knw why i cant FUCKING process



I need a catalyst to sublime

sublime into the equilibrium thats defined

I await a human soul which is PURE

healing my pain...my griefs...my wounds to the CURE!!!



I've found the unknown wild side of me

I'd be honoured if i could let ME be ME

still in the search for...THE ONE

THE ONE...that could TAME THE BEAST within................

Dont you slip away from me!!!

Something blew in the air & told me

that you're always somewhere else and not with me

I am fighting a battle with my feelings...feelings have deserted me

and I see a point from where...there is no return

I've never believed in GOD...but I'll always pray for you.



Why are you slipping away from me

Did'nt I live...just for you

And now you tell me that ur leaving

Don't you dare slip away from me

your love is vulnerable to me



Don't let the world take over you

stay away from the sun

It's too bright for you

Your eyes are getting blurry

you'll get burned in the fury

Still...I'm crying out your name!!!



Something is in the way...between you and me...you're always somewhere else

darkness beckons me...as the light fades out

And you're so close to lose it...the best you ever had



Don't you slip away from me

It's you...I live for

Don't you leave...NO

Don't you slip away from me

I'm vulnerable to your love!!!

OFF to never…NEVERLAND!!!

Its running away from me
the orders we should obey
shed their skins, squeeze their minds
Let the games begin……

another martyr on his road
the final chance to hold
bleed to numb…dead to scum
Surrounded by the sound of bombs

between the day and night
there's only a fine line
between the rise and fall
there's only the war call

beats my heart…GO ON
it's the marching sound
beats my heart, before we die
let's pretend we are fully alive
beats my heart…GO ON
we are immortal now
beats my heart, avoid the fire
let's pretend we fully alive

I know I would die, I know you would die
I know we would die…in Neverland

It’s the time that never flies…it’s the soul that never dies
It’s the death that is never dead & life is what I cant forget

battle is running inside of my head
as I wished to be a star…got beaten by a solider
as I perished in the shadow of war

Buried in Neverland

beats my heart…GO ON
it's the marching sound
beats my heart, before we die
let's pretend we are fully alive
beats my heart…GO ON
now shall the marshal fall
beats my heart, pick up your weapon
it's the last ride before we are GONE

I know you tried, to make it right
I know we tried, I want to hold you tight
I know we tried… I KNOW…we are off to never…NEVERLAND!!!

Let It Live, once Again!!

Beautifully carved & stoned, like a marble edifice.
Immaculate is this concept of the newborn life.
It's eyes wide open with prosperity and fingers grazing with curiosity.
Fully aware of it's being, but a far-cry from understanding
Just lays there and waits...
Surrounded by thoughts…soft and gentle-- Like the face of GOD
Breathing nature’s essence
Its eyes cries emerald rivers which speaks of peace and warfare
hearing only what it wishes.

With blissful ignorance, it anticipates to climb the mountain of it's fragile mind; jagged and rocky are the paths…tints of blue and grey and black come across.
And at the top, it's conscience rest in a hammock of moss.
Stark and tender it looks, laying low and subtle.

Passive in it's approach to be vocal…unseen are it's closed eyes of pale blue,
What can only be seen are the opaque tears of melancholy
Tracing down the shallow rivers down it's cheeks.
This DEAD-struck body of thought resides here...survives here…As it does throughout this life.
Let us awaken it from it's terror and fear not our own souls.

Let it live, once again.

Life Goes On...

Everybody is looking, but nobody sees anything, Anything...with a meaning
Everybody is Talking, but nobody says anything, Anything...with a meaning
So as I look with my bloodshot eyes I see nothing meaningful
And so as I Talk A million empty words and its all so fucking meaningless

Sometimes I find myself running out of words, Cannot put my feelings into words
Afraid of something that I don't know with a great passion to leave the whole world for good.
It seems like a down feeling, the kind of emotions that lock you in a tight cold

Transforming everything good in your life into Fear…and then disappear
Somehow I used to live this way, with those feelings until they became a part of me, the thing that I cannot understand that those feelings begin to bring me joy
I call it the Tearful Joy or the Sadness Smile
in any case I begin to enjoy
feeling this makes it more mysterious and complicated
I've become a very difficult person to understand even for my own self
like an open book for everyone but impossible to understand

Pride within me has turned into Arrogance
the Innerlight has turned into Darkness
Even Love has turned into a feeling that has no effect on me anymore

Life is eating me slowly, like the fire eats the candle,
but i still feel that i am just melting...i'll hold upp...i'll be strong...i'll be the one who can make you go wrong!
the only thing that becomes real is the feeling that I don't feel.
And Life Goes on…

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ONE LAST TIME!!!

She felt that I should see her, and with that twisted head I went to get a glimpse of her for maybe one last time!!!
It was just another day when I saw her
Everything was hazy, liquefying in a way
She could’nt look upto me and utter a word
It was haunting and the fear kept loathing
I knew it was the DAY….the day I kept thinking off in that crimson delay
The moment of clarity made me loose faith in humanity
She gave me last few moments alone…I wanted to feel her for that one last time!!!
With her breath so calm, I took her into my arms and as I looked deep into those crystal eyes…I could see I was not there


I was sorry because I had nothing else to say
The clock stopped ticking and I could feel my heart fade away


The winds blew but I was still undercover
I just could’nt realize the fact that SHE and ME were OVER
I left her…asking for that one last kiss
To the day when I needed her the most…her smile…her fragrance…her eyes
I lost something so precious for which I waited all my life
Time was never on my side so I could’ve saved this for myself


If I close my mind and feel…I feel she’s breathing with me…(feel me)
If I sleep all I could see is that she’s dreaming with me...(hold me)
If I face the reality…someone stitch me together
If you see me crushed…please remind me of the time we’ve spent alone…ONE LAST TIME!!!