DILEMMA

Dreaming…Feeling…Pleasing…I have to
Thoughts that I was used to
Fear has paid now
Higher I go…I get lost in mortality!

I need everything and everyone
Spend a moment in time with the love evolved within me
I will surrender to my being…I need to learn how to!
Choosing paths is not a choice for me anymore…

Success will ride with me
Only if I hold on tight on the waves
The waves of this tyrant life that flows
Hate and rage got no meaning at all!

Tired of being in this dilemma
Ending this life seems like the final solution
Why are some questions in life unanswerable?
Inner self yells and screams out the pain!

Is there anyone listening to you cry?
The only face that evolves through the night is yours…
But its hazy and her appearance has diminished from my past
I don’t want to let you go…hear me and establish a relationship with my core!

Its not me…it’s the anger inside
Real ME has mellowed down…
Remains from my past still inflicts the demon
With the innocence of a child my heart has known you

You let a dead man walk again…
This time on a path to survive
Why would I want to share you with the world?
Give me a reason to let my BEING DEFINE!

Uncertainty

Where are you tonight?
Wild flower in starlit heaven
Still enchanted in flight
Obsessions lament to freedom

A timeless word, the meanings changed
But I'm still burning in your flames
Incessant, lustral masquerade
Unengaged, dim lit love didn't taste the same

Diabolical and yet so strange
Critical masses inflicted in this infidel called the brain
Structuring life that’s not the same
Looking upto the heavens for a desperate change

Uncertainty arises the death of imagination
Concluding this life with a question in mind
Tomorrow if she is not with me should I forgive her?
Why would you ask for forgiveness if I made you relive your life again!
Why would you ask for forgiveness if I touched you when no one could!
Why would you ask for forgiveness if all you hear is the sound of our laughter!
Why would you ask for forgiveness if the energy between you and me is UNIVERSAL!

Reality closing in behind
Visions die diminishing my yesterdays
Potentiality remains untouched
Greater the vice…leaves future in dismay

I came alone in this world
Why do I need you to be there
But my need is my hunger
I wont let my destiny die
I cry for a moment in time with you
Scared of blinking my eye to not see you
I dream for a life ahead with you being blind
Surrender onto me…or kill me with thy bare hands
And u know why I need that silent exit
Release me from my pain

Today I might not be the one you fell in love with
What if tomorrow you change
Tomorrow when I’ll be the one you want to be with
What if then I change?

And I wonder if you ever wonder the same
And I still wonder