Been through this complexity

I utter no surprise

Never believing in the thoughts that I suffice

I wonder why your not there?

So this is it…

We’ve always been a mistake

All the stories we ever wrote

Had no faith…

I thought maybe we had one more song

To sing along…

To reverberate the chords of TIME

Goes unpunished in the end

Are the deeds of the fallen

Cant lookup to that face

Stories that we wrote together…can never erase

Parallel world of the unspoken

Can never blossom a life

It can imitate itself…

Recreating only images of reprise

The castles built from stones

Are buried under the visions of untold

Remembered are those memories

That savored my every breath

Buried all our secrets in my skin

Air around me still feels for you

Let me run away before we know

That my heart has become too dark to care

Love resembles like rage to me now

I refuse to fight

Cant see you spit on my face

I hope that I never change coz I cant let go

Silence of the moon

Flaunting that hope

In the abundance of the sky

Silence is my crown

As it blinds my eyes

Silence is my heart

Every time it beats..it bleeds blood to the bones

And the silence fades

Watching me…Drifting away

Incomplete storm…is where my heart

I am hunting for a different life

On a path of such a beautiful disaster

Seeking…searching…bleeding

Trying to feel the warmth of the fire

I cherish you as a part of me

All of me is now ripped apart

I think I made it very clear to myself

I only wish we were never friends

I never needed any help

I am in a place that no one can find

I am the origin of my mind

I am in myself...I need to set "ME" free

Amongst the UNDEAD...the DEADMAN still tries

Breaking away

Broken days of shame

Visions again...playing the games

I will not taste the death of time...

Cannot manufacture another crime

Fighting fire...with my ashes I paid the price

Faking away

I wish I could rest to gaze

From reality...I astray

Delusion forever paved the way

While for you I waited on the other side

You lost your pride and with it...your alibies

Taking away

The memories that willl never fade

I lived through you...I would've died for you

Going back to the place where my serenity vanished

I knew there will be no sun shining 

Saddened hope destroyed me from the inside

Loosing myself away

Waiting forever in the desert of my cries

No one...no one sees the emptiness.......in those eyes

Hold me now...and I will just slit my neck

With blood I shall purify my lies

You left me here for the world unknow...amongst the undead...the deadman still tries

Moments I Spent Alone.............

Given the moments I be on my own

Pride dissolves to solace

The hunger to be alone

Draws me the course to the visions of my unheard self

Being so cynical...the narsaccistic cannibal

I paint the dark walls of hell with my own blood and glory

Why I should follow my heart?

Why should I fall apart?

THERE WAS A TIME...WHEN SINFUL DESIRES APPRECIATED THE DEMON INSIDE OF ME

I have already been through the pain behind the memories

I chased the pain

There was something I had lost in me

Some Promised Hope that will set me free

Seems like I never really knew me

Though I had so many who understood me

What godly appearence THE WOMAN makes in life

In a flashfire of a moment in time she owns you with her Devastatingly Beautiful  kiss 

Sinking down and breading under this hopeful...yet hopeless veil

I will always be forsaken

Searching for a peaceful shell to decay

I promise you "LOUVE" The remains of my love for you will build you a path you cant stray

Reconnection With My Inner-Self

Life is in a warehouse

Hovered by the dark clouds

With the lightning trying to strike

Again! I am at a place where I was never meant to be

In time and space

My mind is free

Finally I learnt how to share

For you my dear…If only you could open up your mind and see

A fallen hero…A sunken tribe

Is not who I am…and I say this with pride

Living through a snakepit…I’ve survived this poisoned lie

As I walk amongst YOU people, being MYSELF and not faking mankind

Yes I was falling…I never knew I would one day hit the ground

I cant tell you if I am breaking down

But I learnt to live alone…

depending on this chemical independency

And I refuse to come to an end

I think I have realized what I could have been

Covering my face with my bravest mask

Black as the dead end of a hole, my sunken soul will be saved

Carve that knife deep within

Twist it coz I want to see you FUCKING cry

I’ll cry with you for the last time

To never be back again

No answer will come from me

Make me your worst enemy

Is there still something you see in the mirror?

Its time to face upto me

Love now just dies in my eyes…coz love is what YOU…meant to me……………………………………………….

Will There Be Heroes

Watching the visions go through the mountains

So high they stand in their pride

Like all of our brothers… defenders of time

I stand in the mirror…looking at this empty vision

Thinking there are no heroes

Only vengeance and crimes

Can we see...we are

Can we feel...we are

Can we try to be on this run

Bonded flesh…Bonded blood…Bonded love in this town

There will be no more heroes only a violent sky

There will be no more sinners you could ask yourself why?

WILL WE EVER CHANGE?

WHAT DO YOU WANT IN EXCHANGE?

WILL WE EVER CHANGE…..

Will there be NO MORE HEROES?

Seventh Son Of The Seventh Sun

Dreaded wars decide my fate

Is this the ordeal we are about to face?

Dead counts of the wrathchild

Forever faking identity…forever we surrender unto our cries

Looking beyond the the horizon

There’s a world without these lies

War, hatred, killing are not the words known to mankind

We are breaded with it for our survival

But is this how we pretend our clones

Is this how we live upto our stones

For i knw…i am the seventh son of the severnth sun

And my father taught me pride…

In peace we all sublime…in peace we fade to black

And in peace we corrode to dust

My fears come alive

In this place where i once died

Demons dreaming knowing I

I just needed to Re-align

At the Edge of a dream Tomorrow Never Comes

Didn’t mean to cause you trouble…
Didn’t mean to cause you pain
I never thought this could turn out this way
Maybe I am a big mistake

 Didn’t mean to say those words
Didn’t mean to hurt your pride
We r looking for some inspiration
I never found it in your heart

Walking on the edge of a dream
Cant you see that I am a real
Pretending its forever
Walking to the edge of the world
We belong in our dream
For a while you feel this silence

I have been looking for forgiveness
When I am sinking in my past
I only looking for a sign that tells me
Where I can walk through this endless field
Walking on the edge on a dream
Cant you see that I am real
Pretend that its forever
Walking to the edge of the world
We belong in our dream...always together
For a while it feels the silence

Waiting for the weight of the world
In a place of cold
If tomorrow never comes
Hold my hand one last time while I face this storm
If tomorrow never comes
Tomorrow Never Comes…Tomorrow Never Comes…Tomorrow Never Comes

My Angelica...just never knew!

Strangest illusion struck my mind

The whiskers lifting from your face

Makes me believe in the time that’s scarce

Terrible reality, but my soul just haunts for you

I cant bear for a moment the department u decide

Striving hard to attain immortality

To preserve the innocence that’s led onto me

Far and far away…it was always for you to say

Believing in identity…is believing in you…the angel I bore

Fading into the lost realities

I deny my being to salvage painful sanity

To withheld me from my freedom…I gave you my pride

Sanctity is my earthen woven do I beg for what I bleed

Stimulating the past of my reprisal

To bred in for my needs

The she-wolf is what’s breathing into me

Otherwise I was dreaded with surprise

Proclaiming to the hate we have evolved in

I truly sublime…for its you the angel that spoke from within

More than I need you with that blink of an eye

Most shimmering was the glitter u subside

Believing is another inhuman tendency

Only with you I feel the energy

Finally I feel so close to everything

So strange but finally life makes sense now!!! Thank You

Mirror Mirror On The Wall

Watching my reflection stare at me
Watching my possible future spit on me
Watching myself hit the rock bottom
Hardest part was still letting you walk away.

Sitting here all by myself today
There Comes tomorrow when I’ll be gone
Leaving myself in a shimmering pain this way
When the world doesn’t have a clue what’s going on.

Loving the addiction all alone
All our lives pretending clones
Nothing is wrong with a bit of shame?
When I know I’m the one who breaks

Whispers now turn into erratic screams
My life fall’s before an autumn leaf
Shadows of the lament past haunting me in my dreams
Tonight is the night when I’m so pleased.

Resting on the table with a little shot-gun
Looking at the barrel I know the moment has come
I need to breathe the final air
and wish this blow shall take the pain away

Maybe...Its just ME

I am not sure if its gonna work

Maybe I need sometime alone

All the little things she said

All the little pills I fucking take

Maybe its just another dream for me

Some kind of a little fantasy

Maybe its Life’s little game

That I am not prepared to play

Did you see those little lights

When it refracted back from the glitter in your eyes

They got dim by the autumn winds

I sure did find the river of hope…through them

I could just get killed by the winter breeze...so kill me

Did you see that broken smile

And how it still keeps on smiling

Did you see that broken man

And how quiet he was dying

Maybe life’s supposed to be this way

I've worn the coat of this deeper grey

Maybe...Its just ME

It’s the way I choose to see

Maybe...Its just ME

It’s the length that I choose to see

The Bleeding

When the silence travels
It slows down the particles of light
And then its time we realize
What life means to us all

Sadness hides the terrible realities
I wish I could dread the paths somewhat diffrently
Knowing that I'll soon be gone
I spoke to the strangers...the angels that prevented holocoust

Unspoken...I twist back in
How did I even get here?
With crooked hands and wicked eyes on me
I know you had the bloodthirst

Felt all alone in a crowded room
Love and hate was behind my eyes
Flashbacks...echoes...the silent cries
I appreciate you punished me...once again!

Gaining on the lust for pain
I surrender to my soul...who's to blame?
Rewards can never be the same
Death I abandon you...wander for the lost masquerade

Lifeless Lossless Years

Lifeless lossless years
Keeps our hands off the stitch
There is someone inside
All we are doing is just fighting ourselves…they must be destroyed

Lonely heart craves for some patience
Risking our lives to bleed
Sick are the eternal fears
Its time to be purified

Gods break apart Heaven and Hell
Massive outbursts of souls
Demanding for solace
Breathing no more

It wont be long…
Till we all hold our cries
Until we are left all alone
Still we hold our freedom to rise

Is this “soul” that I have
I ask you thy father
Sundown I am born for the evil
Scavenging to feed my bones

I rape and filter through the race
I leave my kind with sorrows and disgrace
Breaking the silence my TRUTH can be heard
Who am I??? Who knows the answer…

For “I” had faith in you
For “I” knew you were nothing like me
A dying promise I make to myself again
Learn to believe in GOD coz he still persists

Just Believe....Part 2

Do I breathe the same air? not anymore

I never knew but I always had a savior in the hour of my need

The flavours of my lost yesterday tickles my tastebuds again

Been facing the rain….dancing underneath the true colous of my failure



Lost forever…evading the darkside

Don’t want to walk away when the sun is burning

Implications will always win

But it’s the “WILL” that goes in for the “KILL”



More than ever I hope to never fall

Yet I am thirsty for some outburst

Nothing remains as it was before

The celebration kept me alive hoping that no disaster could touch me anymore



Misfired thoughts aimed to reach

Its the complexity of mind that diverts the target

Lust for greed is the new love for mankind

Breaking the silence i can now rest on the crust



In this new world...where i cant find noone of my kind

My instincts have become more strong, even if i cant find...i dont think LIFE will mind

Stayed with me are the hyms i tranced to, the songs i danced to

They became my rhythm I walk onto now



Just a trigger in my head and i had to blow it off

To control myself for a reason...as a human i am fragile

Maybe now i can build a forest in the desert

Revelations lead to my inspiration for recreation...i am HAPPY till my next deterioration

JUST BELIEVE.....Part 1

Immersed in a dream…I stole the soul that once belonged to me

Luring the darkest thoughts I create…believing in a fake destiny

Scattered earth now does not have enough room for me

I see the visions of silent endeavor…confessing to the broken promise I once made



Buried all the secrets within…dignifying to judge myself again

Till now I couldn’t face my life without those lies

Falling deeper into the woods of my own perpetual world

Running parallel to the world that’s not my own



Woke up to an eternal bliss called sunshine

Terrified…yet lost in thy eyes

Left me at the gates of heaven you asked me to walk

Barring all the reality…I wish I was blind and I could travel afar



In my heaven I am safe and cold

I sing with myself to know my fears

Circle the monsters…circle resistance

Dancing the whole time in sanity…in my imaginary seas

Madness is my highest deed…my vanity



I swim into you…dark rivers

Dive in your mind

Fight for a thousand years…the pounding of blood through my veins

Sink into the mud to disdain slain



My angels left me and now I am on my own....

The beast spoke to me

I fought my mind....and now there is nothing left in me.....

Burn all the love and live in shadows...that’s how I am meant to be

Beneath this avenged death-hole is a vision in which I BELIEVE....JUST BELIEVE

My Death In My Dreams

I saw my death in my dreams
The most beautiful undreamt dream it played
Salvaging my thoughts to pacify my soul
As it was unreal, now it’s making me so cold

A guiding sound asked me to have what’s left of me
Into the firing line…where I gained strength and less I felt alive
From the corners of my engraved past…came alive my black side
The unlaid paths I took just covered up for my sins

Panic ran away and it left me thinking
I always thought I’ll find my way to paradise
It was all lies that knocked my door
There is no one on the otherside…and how long can you hide???

Deserted and dark is the hole
Nothing seems to change coz its just another womb
Long is the ride in the dark
As the cry from the end echoes in

You never get to see the sun again
How can my dreaded fate survive
Conspire to hold myself down
There is no silent apathy inside

The colours in my hope have washed off
Left me with a tainted life with a tainted soul
I tried to sail with the innocence left within my pride
I took a stride…but the innocence is the killer of my inner-sense

These Pages From My Book

In this vacant sky I see

The beginning of this immortal destiny

Walks on the paths of sorrow

But nothing beats this surreal purity of the world unseen



Where light... spills out with the landslide

Confronting heroes with single-glazed eyes

Crashing in on the other side



Stalked out cold on the threshold

Clashed out with the loving lost souls

Smoked out of the priest hole



Faith... laid out to avenge the fallen

Lapped up by the fake weathered sky

Sold all the emotions by the ingrates who crawled



Pushed out the new blood born

Demolishing the fragments of my throne

Lashed out on the slandering line

Chronically under-looked are these pages from my book

Yet I saw another moment in time and all of which you took